Making Sense

As I get older and gain more life experience I begin to realize what is important to me, how to prioritize or as my sister and I say #priorities. I have learned how to be at peace with where I am in life.

There was a time where I didn’t live my life for me. I guess I lived my life according to what I thought others thought I should do. I am not sure how or when it happened but it did. I settled into my life and accepted that I am who I am and live my life the way I see fit. Its OK to not be doing what everyone else is doing. Its OK to be an individual. Everything sort of just falls into place and nothing is perfect.

I got married young and had Owen young and was not prepared for what life handed me. I spent a lot of time wishing for things didn’t have, wanting to go places I could not go and wanting to be things I couldn’t be. It took me time to settle into my role add wife and mother. To learn to be happy with what I had. There was a point I guess I realized that when I long for what I don’t have I am not appreciating what I do have. And I have a lot and am extremely grateful.

Do I like to have nice things, yes. Do I long for my own home, yes. Do I want to take vacations a few times a year, yes. I honestly believe that in time all of these things will come.

Those things are not what is important though. Things are not important to me. People are important to me. It’s my relationships that I cherish, not my possessions.

So it has taken 31 years but I can honestly say I am at peace with my life and myself. Ask me about aging and that’s a different story. I can’t say I am at peace with that.

I am a work in progress and will continue improve and work hard to maintain happiness. Life throws curve balls and challenges which will make things hard at times but history has shown me that those hard times pass. We are good people who deserve good. We will continue to be good people and good things will happen for us.

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Need to…

Brian and I are famous for making decisions on impulse and emotion and once the mood passes we loose our mojo and don’t follow through. And by decisions I mean “hey, let’s have a date night tonight.” After two straight hours of fighting kids we decide forget date night let’s zone out and watch a movie. I will get a burst of energy in the afternoon and think to myself, I think I will work out tonight. Then the day gets to me and I zone out at night and say forget it. I will practice commitment in my life.

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Snow Day

Another snow day. 

No school because of Blizzard Nemo.

That is the fourth day off in a row. February break is next week and is still on. So if there is school tomorrow and Friday which I highly doubt the kids will have been home for 14 days home in a row. If there is no school Thursday or Friday that will make it 16. Aren’t you proud, I can add. 

While I love having my boy home I think we are all feeling the effects of cabin fever. Luckily it hasn’t been so bitterly cold that Owen has to stay inside. So a lot of his time has been spent outside in the snow. He comes in exhausted. A win win!

I can honestly say I have never seen so much snow in my life. 24″ of snow. 

I cant imagine how exciting it was for the kids. Well actually I can. I have hardly seen my boy in three days. He should be an eskimo.

 

Digging out was not easy.

 

It took our guys two full days to clear the snow. 

 

 

It was so beautiful every where you looked. Snow covered trees, clean snow, no cars. Just peaceful.

 

 

 

 

Lets just hope we dont get anymore snow for a few days or even weeks. There is no where to put it. 

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Moody

Its hard to hear that you are going to be a single mother for the next few months and accept it. I am not a single mother but for a while I will be. My husband is so busy with work that he will be gone a lot of the time. So to hear that you will be a single mother but really are not is a hard thing.

Will I man up and deal, yes.

Will I try my damnedest to lean on those I trust, yes.

Right now I am being a “Debby Downer” and sulking because it knocked me out of left field.

I guess I have to get used to doing what I want at nap time or bedtime. Having very little time for my needs. Its what being a mom is all about.

Normally I would rely on my spouse for those five minutes to regain my sanity. Now I will just take many deep breaths, accept this is where we are right now and be the best mother I can be. Maybe drink a little more wine at night. 

I must give a huge shout out to all the single mothers out there and the military moms. Its not easy and I raise my hat to you. In all honesty I have been doing it for so long over the past eight years I kind of dont even blink when I hear I will be alone for the week. I have a strong marriage and an incredibly strong bond with my children. We will work together to make this happen flawlessly.

Now if it would just stop snowing long enough to send the kids back to school. We are going on day six of being home and next week is feb vacation. That will be two weeks straight of bored kids home with not much to do. Snowed in because of the blizzard and then the following clean up. 

I can do this!!!!

Deep Breaths!!!!

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Christmas 2012

 

 

My Christmas was amazing. I have a huge family and love every second of our holiday celebrations.

Christmas Eve at my Brother-in-laws house. There is never a dull moment with the Boissonneaults.

 

Shaney loves to help his Uncle Joe

 

 

 

 

Hands down the best pic of the night! Owen loves his cousins.

 

 

 

 

There were many, many moments like this. I guess I am the mean mom that thinks its cute and takes pics instead of comforting. The comforting came after the cute pic.

 

This kid is had is 9th Christmas. I cant believe it.

 

Vicky and Joey

Auntie Angie is so calm and tolerant of this boy and his curiosity a.k.a. pulling every ornament off the tree. 

 

He may not like me very much for this some day but for now this is an amazing picture. 

Mason is such a love bug!!!

 

Three of the five

 

Here is the fourth. The fifth is down south with his family.

 

Thanks to Greg for including me in a picture. Its a rare occasion.

 

Christmas Morning at our house was amazing. I didn’t take many photos. I kind of wanted to take it all in and enjoy my boys. Watch them open their presents and beg to open each one not realizing there are more to go.

We went to my moms for Christmas brunch.

 

Baby Julia’s First Christmas

 

Then this happened. Out of nowhere Jim was toasting how great the family is and he appreciates us so much then BOOM!!!! Out comes the ring and down he goes.

Lyndee and Jim got engaged!!!! It was a beautiful moment. I was so happy to have been there to see it.

The kids are all getting so much older. This is what they did the entire morning. 

 

 

 

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

I have had a bit of bloggers block over the past few months. I actually have photographers block as well. I have just not been inspired.

I am not usually a huge resolution person. I wake up every day and try to be a better person. 2012 has not been a great blogging/photography year for me. I need to step it up. The more pictures I take the more I will want to write and share. Or the more I write I may want to take more pictures. Who knows how it happens. I just know that I have to take the step to get out of the blogging funk. 

I know 2013 will be a great year for the Boissonneaults. We have had so much change this year. While we love change and new adventures we hope to settle down, buy a house, get a dog and who knows, maybe have another baby. I don’t know what the cards hold but I do know that good things are happening.

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