As I get older and gain more life experience I begin to realize what is important to me, how to prioritize or as my sister and I say #priorities. I have learned how to be at peace with where I am in life.
There was a time where I didn’t live my life for me. I guess I lived my life according to what I thought others thought I should do. I am not sure how or when it happened but it did. I settled into my life and accepted that I am who I am and live my life the way I see fit. Its OK to not be doing what everyone else is doing. Its OK to be an individual. Everything sort of just falls into place and nothing is perfect.
I got married young and had Owen young and was not prepared for what life handed me. I spent a lot of time wishing for things didn’t have, wanting to go places I could not go and wanting to be things I couldn’t be. It took me time to settle into my role add wife and mother. To learn to be happy with what I had. There was a point I guess I realized that when I long for what I don’t have I am not appreciating what I do have. And I have a lot and am extremely grateful.
Do I like to have nice things, yes. Do I long for my own home, yes. Do I want to take vacations a few times a year, yes. I honestly believe that in time all of these things will come.
Those things are not what is important though. Things are not important to me. People are important to me. It’s my relationships that I cherish, not my possessions.
So it has taken 31 years but I can honestly say I am at peace with my life and myself. Ask me about aging and that’s a different story. I can’t say I am at peace with that.
I am a work in progress and will continue improve and work hard to maintain happiness. Life throws curve balls and challenges which will make things hard at times but history has shown me that those hard times pass. We are good people who deserve good. We will continue to be good people and good things will happen for us.